My Medicine Ball

It was so hard to pull myself out of bed today. I took a pretty good feeling shower and then dressed up for another day in the life of xavier. I find myself at wall...one of those walls that you can't break through and there is only one way out.
Last night I just sat and thought to myself....what is happening?
Walk a mile in my shoes...your feet will break...
school is going alright
I just hate waking to have someone tell me what I'm aloud to say, wear, and just who I can be. It pisses me off...I really need to get some new music on my ipod lately I've been listening to a lot of...
Eminem
Asking Alexandria
Oceano
MyChildren MyBride
Job For A Cowboy
Alesana
John Mayer

I just listen to what I like I guess...fuck it
Mia
I talked to her last night and I'm kind of hoping she likes me..
because I wouldn't mind trying to get away from my past...I mean I love my ex but I can't handle shit...It's difficult and complicated and I don't know how I'm supposed to explain it...especially when anyone can see this.


Delusion
by: Xavier

A place like this, filled with unsatisfyed tyrants and a disease
in it's own.
Bare with your arms like we've always done, bare to be ignorant
and relentless in it's own.
A Martyr keeps his gold wrapped tight with the hold on his neck
he will embrace what is rightfully his.
Our echoes are coated with death and skimming the surface of just
EXISTING.
The place above the clouds can't be seen
and this perception of life belongs to noone
noone but me.

just a little poem...
Quote of the day

"The life that I am force fed
I'm scared of the road ahead
Have you listened to a word I've said?
The big picture is my dream is dead."

- I See Stars